The Last Days; which side will you choose?

I've basically had a hard life from the get go. After my divorce, I had to rediscover who I was, and when I did, I thought I couldn't be broken down again. I was wrong. I shouldn't have been surprised, but I was, why would my divorce make that any different?

 I have always been a sensitive and emotional vessel; not in the sense that I cry easily, because I don't, but that I feel any emotion very strongly. I adapt to the environment and people around me too easily, and I sometimes lose myself if it's too much for me to handle. Most people refer to this as being an empath. I would refer myself as a desensitized empath, which honestly could be very dangerous in the wrong person. In most empaths, violence can render an individual to actually be sick because they feel the victims pain so strongly. When I was younger, I was much more sensitive and seeing any form of brutality terrified me. As an adult, violence has become somewhat of a stress reliever for me in the form of playing a video game or watching a horror film. Over the years, I've learned how to read people, get people to trust me, and even how to be manipulative; when I realized this, I was legitimately scared. Having that kind of power could be evil if I abused it, and I was in fear of giving in to my dark side and being capable of terrible things. 

HA! I seriously couldn't help myself. 

Knowing I have all this capacity to do ill, I also have a greater capacity to do good. I know this, Satan knows this, and Heavenly Father knows this. I also know over the years, there has been quite the battle over my 'destiny', if you will. 

I got my Patriarchal Blessing when I was 17 and that was a defining moment in my life. Two things happened that particularly stood out and from what I understand, it doesn't happen to many people, members included. First, God himself actually spoke to me personally during my blessing, and Second, I was told that I am one "of the noble and great ones;" Abraham 3: 22 & 23; an elect chosen by Heavenly Father himself. There have often been times I've wondered, "Why me?"

I know that my bouts of depression and being suicidal is one of the many ways Satan is trying to prevent me from doing great good in my life, but without the bad, I wouldn't know the good. We are now living in such dark and perilous times, and the battle for the sway of being good today will be harder now more than ever. We can no longer sit on the sidelines and do nothing. Doing nothing is as bad as the people doing the evil in the world; you have to consciously choose to be the difference for good in the last days. 

Please take a few minutes to watch this video.

Which side will you choose?